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Friday 29 May 2015

Head Space Daily Words...

Fifteen years ago I saw Aston Villa play against Chelsea beneath the Twin Towers, in what was to be the last FA Cup Final staged at the old Wembley Stadium. It was the first time the Villa had played in the FA Cup Final for forty-three years, when we beat Manchester United 2-1, with two well-taken goals from Peter McParland. The images of Johnny Dixon – Villa’s captain – carried shoulder high, are reminders of a by gone era, former glories and the joy that winning the FA Cup can bring (see below.) The win in 1957 was the seventh time Villa had lifted the trophy and remained the highest number of FA Cup victories until Spurs passed it in 1991.

At the 2000 Final I was 26 years old, living in Brixton and a season ticket holder in the Lower Holte End. Life was exciting, full of expectation and I was making my way in the world, accompanied by optimism, an ever growing record collection and big nights out. At the 2015 final tomorrow, I will be 41 years old, living in South East London and grateful if I can make it to ten matches a season, along with my two boys, currently aged thirteen and ten. Expectations of life have been replaced with a determination to get by and optimism has turned into realism. The record collection grows ever larger, whilst big nights out are as rare as rocking horse doo-doo.

As life has changed and moved on, one constant presence has been Aston Villa Football Club, with its eternal ability to frustrate, yet always offer a glimmer of hope and better times ahead. This season sums the club up. The team has lost a grand total of 20 league matches and underwent a horrendous goal scoring drought. The style of football was so utterly dull the club should have been paying the supporters to come and watch, yet after looking seemingly destined for Championship football next season, the new manager, Tim Sherwood, has turned things around. He has instilled belief in the players to play positive, direct, attacking football, which has kept us in the Premier League and by helping the team reach the FA Cup Final, the 2014/15 season could end up becoming the greatest since 1982, when Villa lifted the European Cup. Football certainly is a funny old game.

Before the 2000 FA Cup Final I met up with friends at a pub in West Hampstead and not being the biggest drinker, was already well gone by the time I made it to the ground. A tradition of FA Cup Finals is for the hymn Abide With Me to be played and sung before the match. I am not big on my religious songs and the only three words I know to Abide With Me are in fact, “abide with me” but it is such an emotive song and so connected with the moments before the kick off of a Cup Final that it gets me every time. Tomorrow will be no exception and I will be belting out those three words with gusto and a lump in my throat.

My overriding memory of the 2000 Final is one of utter disappointment. It is without a doubt my worst day in football. The team was fearful and played with no adventure. In truth, it was a poor game of football. At that time Villa had finished sixth in the league, whilst Chelsea were a rising force, who had finished fifth and were three years away from being taken over by Roman Abramovich. Some kind of romantic football notion had led me to believe that Villa would win the FA Cup on that day, taking into account our history in the competition and it being the last final to ever be played at the old Wembley. Looking back this was obviously a foolish reason on which to build my hopes of victory, as it quite simply comes down to who plays best on the day.

At the final whistle I can remember being so disgusted with the team’s performance that I shouted my disapproval at the fans who were giving the players a standing ovation and I stormed off – still somewhat drunk. My memories of the evening that followed are sketchy but I can remember ringing the doorbells of several posh houses in Hampstead and running away. I also remember looking up at Big Ben and the huge pale yellow clock face, as I said my farewells to people I had been hanging out with. My girlfriend (now my wife) apparently came home to find me asleep on the settee with a pizza carton across my chest and the only words she could get out of me were, “they let me down, the boys let me down.”

Tomorrow will be a very different story. Aston Villa is the serious underdog against an extremely strong, in form Arsenal team, who will be expected to win. The day is about enjoyment, savouring the atmosphere, relishing the occasion. We are not there to simply make up the numbers though. This is a Cup Final and anything can happen. The itinerary for me and my boys will be a meal at Nandos in London Bridge, before going to meet a couple of friends, one of whom I went to the Final with in 2000, in a pub on Finchley Road. After a drink or two we will tube it to Wembley Park, venture up Wembley Way and make our way to our seats. The Villa fans will be exceptional as they always are away from home.

Due to the number of times Aston Villa have won the trophy coupled with the length of time it has been since we were last Champions, the FA Cup has become a Holy Grail for the club. For many years, I would rather us win the FA Cup than the Premier League; and as the years have gone by, the actual chances of winning the League have become zero, with the only hope to be bought by a multi billionaire who can buy the title. That is not football, that is not sport. So, for me the FA Cup is the last bastion of competitive football and on the basis of a one off game, the odds can be overturned. The Twin Towers have long since been replaced at Wembley by The Arch, which is a symbol of modern football and tomorrow I travel with hope, rather than expectation but as long as the boys don’t let me down, that is good enough for me, win or lose.






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My pass to a great footballing occasion tomorrow and hopefully glory in the FA Cup Final...

Head Space Daily Tune...

This track by Jeff Beck will be played tomorrow should Villa win, with the words "hi ho silver lining," replaced by "hi-ho Aston Villa." I can only dream...

Jeff Beck - Hi Ho Silver Lining


Saturday 16 May 2015

Head Space Daily Words...

Life is all about peaks and troughs. Not mountain peaks like Everest and Kilimanjaro, or containers used on farms to hold pig swill; what I am talking about are the highs and lows that keep this thing interesting and prevent you from disappearing into a deep swirling abyss of dark nothingness, like the figure of the man caught in the spinning fractal of the posters for Hitchcock’s movie Vertigo. Speaking of which, I saw Vertigo on TV last weekend and by Christ, it is mental. Talk about suspending your disbelief!! In the Night Garden on Cbeebies is more credible – although Vertigo is a cracking film – and Igglepiggle in the James Stewart role, wouldn’t quite work. Anyway, back to peaks and troughs. One long running trough has been a lengthy workless stint, from which I have just emerged for the next two weeks but firstly, I am going to talk about the wonderful peak from last Saturday night at the Jazz Café in Camden Town, where we went to see Carleen Anderson. For those of you who do not know or remember, Carleen Anderson was the vocalist on Young Disciples 1991 LP Road To Freedom, which is one of the all time great albums. If you don’t own a copy please go out and buy one, as artists who make exceptional music deserve our support.  Carleen commanded the Jazz Café stage. Her voice and vocal range is gob smackingly profound. On her opening track I was surprised by how deep and full her voice was in the opening section but by the end of the same song, she had taken us through a breath taking array of high note vocal acrobatics.

That was the warm up. When a singer gives you a moment so perfect that time seems to stand still, when your surroundings seem to melt into oblivion and a sense of ecstatic disbelief takes you over, it is an extremely precious event. This happened when Carleen sang a version of Deniece WilliamsFree and my word you were taken to another place, at the wonder of how such a beautiful sound could be emanating from another human being’s mouth. Speechless.

On the Sunday following the gig, I was asked to begin a two week spell of work, starting on the Tuesday. This was a significant peak, rising from a tedious workless trough and is one that will hopefully grow higher. Being around people again is a novelty in itself after a time out and a welcome change. I can hold conversations once more. It is like being set free!!

At the time of writing this HSD entry, I was on the District Line, just leaving Gloucester Road Underground station, with Deep Inside by Hardrive playing on my i-pod. This is another one of the tracks I have recently converted from vinyl to audio file. I have good memories of this tune, when Masters At Work were at the height of their powers. Take a listen at Head Space Daily Daily Tune.

Future high points include next weeks Unknown Mortal Orchestra gig at Islington Assembly Hall, which will be a new venue for me. This band has really caught my imagination in recent years and I am enjoying what I have heard from the new album. I saw them play live around eighteen months ago at the Electric Ballroom in Camden and was blown away by their live performance. They will play Shepherd’s Bush Empire in November, which could be another future peak.

Next up is Aston Villa’s final Premier League game of the season at home to Burnley, followed a week later by the FA Cup Final at Wembley. You never know what to expect as a Villa supporter. Take today for instance. A 6-1 thrashing away to Southampton was a trough, wrapped in the peak of guaranteeing Premier League survival, due to other results going our way in the afternoon. Now we are staying up, we can get well and truly focused on the Final. The FA Cup is the greatest Cup competition in world football so for myself to be going to the Final with my two lads, is sensational. The occasion will be a landmark in their young lives. Arsenal are at the other end of the scale to the Villa but this is a one off match, so you never know and being serious underdogs against the Gunners is no bad thing. It stands to be a huge day, regardless of the result and if we won, it would go down in history and become one of the all time great peaks.

With one more week to go at work, another trough looms large but hopefully more work will follow soon to enable me to fund a more peaks. Peaks and troughs – make the world go round.





Head Space Daily Image...


The glorious view that I love from the members room at Tate Modern...

Head Space Daily Tune...

Deniece Williams - Free

Carleen Andersons version of Free, live at the Jazz Cafe was out of this world...




Hardrive - Deep Inside

Classic Masters At Work from 1993. Deep house at its finest...




Unknown Mortal Orchestra - Can't Keep Checking My Phone

Brilliant new tune from UMO...


Friday 1 May 2015

Head Space Daily Words...

Somewhere amongst the day to day - the school drop off, the washing up, contacting clients, the washing, staying on top of the accounts, the ironing, updating the CV, preparing dinner, and everything else that goes on in the brief window of time before the school pick up – it is essential to occasionally break the solitude of freelance life with some pure escapism. For me, this usually takes the form of football, gigs, galleries and movies.

On Wednesday, I saw Sharon Van Etten at Shepherd’s Bush Empire. She sounds fantastic on record but seeing a person or band perform live, crystalizes their brilliance. It’s as if seeing is believing and of course personality comes through, making it a more intimate experience. Sharon has a sense of humour; she looks strong and fragile at the same time. I don’t know how to categorise SVE’s music and I don’t want to, other than to say it is highly personal singer song writing. On stage she has a good time with her band, constantly exchanging looks and laughs with her keyboard player, whose deeper tone on backing vocals juxtaposes with Van Etten’s higher pitch. Her voice is sensational and there is a pure humanity and emotion to the music and lyrics. Beautiful stuff. Sharon has a gift and through pure hard work is finding success.

Today, I went to the Prince Charles Cinema in Leicester Square. Simply getting out into town, having a coffee on Old Compton Street and seeing the world is vital. There is so much life in Soho, it is ridiculous and fantastic. After a spot of people watching, it was a short walk to the PCC to see Blade Runner, the Director’s Cut – the first time I had seen it on the big screen.

Although the movie is actually harsh, bleak and brutal, there is also something incredibly beautiful about it. Those sweeping, futuristic vistas are awe inspiring and the Japanese lady on the billboard, forever selling us her wares, with a nod and a wink is a recurring image, alongside the Coca Cola ad. No matter how bad things are, there will always be capitalism and coke!! Then there is that spellbinding, unnerving, yet gorgeous Vangelis soundtrack and when all is said and done, love, even for a replicant, waves two fingers at a messed up world. So, there is hope for all of us!!

I wonder where next weeks escapism will come from...





Head Space Daily Image...

Here is a photo of Sharon Van Etten from her Shepherd's Bush Empire gig on Wednesday night...




And here is a photo of possibly the greatest cinema in London, the Prince Charles in Leicester Square...


Head Space Daily Tune...

Sharon Van Etten - Every Time The Sun Comes Up

This is the final track on Sharon Van Etten's Are We There album.